Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance

Being Alone.

Not many people like being alone. There are people who are afraid of being alone.

I love being alone.

It's the only time when I feel relaxed, calm, balanced.

Ever since I was younger, I spent the majority of my time alone.

I am the youngest of 5 and with a large age difference there wasn't many people for me to play with.

I've always had my own room. Had my own things.

I was never the child that got hand me downs...there wasn't anyone to pass over their belongings to me.

I worried that going to college would be difficult for me.

I worried about the dorms and having to be around someone 24/7.

I worried that I would go crazy and not be able to grow used to having to share a room with someone.

A very small room at that.

I worried about a lot of things but it was all in vain

Even though I have a roommate and yes, sometimes we are together 24/7 I have a lot of alone time.

She goes out and she does her thing and be being a homebody, prefer to stay in, enjoying the time I have.

Sitting or lying on my bed, alone....it brings me peace of mine.

It allows me to collect my thoughts, think things throughly and find that state of calm.

It allows me to fully relax without having another person with me 24/7.

Growing in a big family, you really cherish your time alone.

What's better than having time to focus on yourself with the distraction of others?

Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy

When it comes down to routine....I'm a failure.

From going from house to house, I've really become an except at just being able to adapt to my environment and become in synch with other's schedules.

I can go days at a time with Olga then a couple days with Maria then a couple days with Sonia and back home and then back to my dorm...I don't really have anything steady.

One routine I have developed in college however is constantly playing music. All the time.

First thing I do in the morning, assuming Kendall is awake as well is and after I check my emails is put on music.

It has such a calming effect, a way to make you happy or sad....what's not to love about it?

I'm not going to go into the many reasons why music is amazing because it would be nothing new.

So, yes. I have a special routine of getting dressed and putting my make up on with the sunlight coming in through the windows and having soft music playing in the background.


People complain a lot about dorms and the nasty facilities in which they have to live with.
I was fortunate to be the first person to live in my dorm.

There are days when I wake up and music is playing and I reach over and open the blinds and the soft light comes in and hits my white sheets and I can't help up sigh in contentment.

How lovely life can be sometimes.

Day 03: Something with which you struggle

WRITING THIS DARN BLOG!

So why I can't I seem to write about it?

I love writing.
I love bragging about my dumb life.

I'm sorry. Let me rephrase that.

I love bragging about my super fabulous, blessed, unique, only-mine, interesting life!


NO,

Have you every really thought about the entire vast universe?
All the possible things that exist outside of our own lives?

All the problems the world is facing?

Yeah? I do too.

and then I feel stupid and redundant to the universe.

SO,  I try not to think like that too often.

ANYWAY.

I don't understand why it is so hard.

I'm on the internet all the time.

Why is that when I actually have to do something productive on this vast fountain of knowledge and
cheap entertainment, I can't seem to do it?


It's utterly PATHETIC if you ask me.


What else do I struggle with?

- I struggle with writing essays at least a week before they are due
- I struggle with studying properly
- I struggle with reading books that are mandatory for class
- I struggle with getting up early in the morning
- I struggle with going to bed early at night
- Remember that last time I went to the gym and drew a good sweat?....yeah, I don't either.
- I struggle with getting an awesome workout

uh...

..... no words

Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year

Thinking about something that I regret not having done last year is tricky.

Life, in a sense, is built on making mistakes and learning from them.

This year was a big milestone for me and everything about it was a learning experience.

I started my frist year of college, living on my own for the first time without a relative there to monitor my every move.

You realize....I mean, I realized that once you are on your own, you really are responsible for yourself.

Making your own choices and being responsible for them is something I learned this year.

When you start college and live in the dorms you meet a variety of different people from various places and various customs and traditions.


I've met a lot of people.
I've seen a lot of things.
I was exposed to things I doubt I would have otherwise ever been exposed to had I not been living here.

Looking back at this last year...school year that is....

I regret not having tried things outside of my comfort zone.
I's so typical and so many people say it but it's true.

I feel content with my first year in college.
So far I feel as if I've done well and I believe it will end well as well.

Maybe I'll go out more next year.

Maybe this summer I'll get my act together and get my license and have the liberty to do all the things I wish I had done this year.


MAYBE.


..... now I feel funny at the notion of admitting that  I wish I had partied more this year. Especially because I know were a party to arise I'd rather lay in bed and scroll through my tumblr..




oi vey!


What am I going to do with myself?

You know that feeling?

You know that feeling you get when you see someone you love so much?

That feeling when you want to take them in yours arms and never let them go?

That moment when you think back to when they were tiny little babies and you see them now 

and you can't believe all they've achieved in their short life and how much they've changed?

That moment when you see them and despite the years, they are still the same?

That moment when you take them in your arms and all you can do is squeeze them tighter?

So tight that they often time protest but you feel as if that's the only way that you can get your love across?

No?

I do.

With 4 different people

This is one of them

Kevin Austin Schloss

My nephew turns 8 today

I remember the first time I saw him

I'm only his aunt but I can only imagine how it must have felt if he were mine

I could never imagine my life without him

He has this comedic side to him that so refreshing and innocent

He's very smart and an extremely quick learner

He's an avid reader

You can find him in bed, lying down, fully engrossed in a book

He is so gentle and loving

He brings a smile to my face every time I see him

His hugs are like no other

I'm so happy to be able to be his aunt

and be as close to him as I am.

I'm so happy I've been able to see him grow 

into the amazing little boy he is

Kevin is one of a kind

Perfect in his own way

I love you, Kev

Happy Birthday

Day 01: Something you're looking forward to this year.

Looking back on it now, this past year has gone by insanely fast.

It seems like only yesterday I was looking for prom dresses, stressing over who I was planning to take and preparing for my AP's and now here I am, almost done with my first year in college.

It's been an experience, one I will never forget.
I have, considering the experiences of others, been very lucky.

People like to ask me how my first year has been and as I take a second to think of an answer, there really isn't anything bad.

My schedules this semester and last semester have been amazing and I can only hope that come next year they will be the same.

Next year will be my second year in college. It seems outrageous to even say it....type it?

As of now I plan to find an apartment with Kendall, my roommate.
Next year I am looking forwarding to having another good and easy going year, much like the one I've experience my freshmen year. I look forward to exploring more options regarding the field in Forensic Psychology that I want to carry out.

I'm looking forward to being on my own, having my own place and feeling independent enough to take care of myself.

I'm looking forward to maintaing the relationship I have with my family now and have their unconditional support as I've had all my life.

I look forward to see my nephews grow one year older, every year learning something new and taking steps into the wonderful young men I know they will all be.

I'm looking forward to all the surprises that life has in store for me.

I look forward to having more of a social life, exploring the beautiful city in which I live and hopefully see some of my favorite bands in concert.

I look forward to all the milestones that come with being one year older, this time it being my last year as a teenager.

I plan to make the most of my 19th year of life.
I know I can achieve many things and I know I have the support to do so much.
I hope that my decisions set me on the right path.
I wish for this next year of my life to be beautiful, fulfilling, full of love and health and most of all...accomplishment.

Why is it so hard to continue a blog?

I used to love blogging.

I really, really did. I'm not even lying as I say this.

It's the truth!

Like I'm sure I mentioned in my last post I kept up a blog last year. Posted something everyday.

The Journey to College, I called it in my mind.

Now that I'm in college, damn, it is hard!

I always feel like I have something to do and in hindsight, it's really easy to sit down and do it but things always come up and there are always places to go and then I find myself having no time and the short time I do have to do something, I want to sleep.

What a mess.

Anyway, I feel like I might have done this 30 day challange in my other blog and I think I'm going to bring  it back to this one.

I'm going to try (I WILL) and post something every day and answer the prompts and see how it differs from my answers from my last blog.

I don't even know if I finished the last one....


I'm HORRIBLE.

Anyway, thank you to blogiversity.org for posting this writing challenge!

30 Day Writing Challenge: 

Day 01: Something you're looking forward to this year.

Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year.

Day 03: Something with which you struggle.

Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy.

Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance.

Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy.

Day 07: Vacation Hiatus

Day 08: Vacation Hiatus

Day 09: Vacation Hiatus

Day 10: Something at which you've been a champion or the best.

Day 11: Something about which people seem to compliment you.

Day 12: Something you hope to change about yourself and why.

Day 13: Discuss some of the things on your bucket list.

Day 14: Someone who has made your life worth living.

Day 15: A band/musical artist whose music impacted your life.

Day 16: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 17: Someone with whom you shared a friendship/relationship that simply drifted out of your life.

Day 18: Someone you met randomly that's made an impact on your life.

Day 19: Something that shook your belief system to its core (a big disappointment in your life).

Day 20: Discuss your favorite movie and why it's so special to you.

Day 21: Write about your best friend (not significant other) and what makes them special.

Day 22: Describe a dark/turbulent moment in your life.

Day 23: Describe a truly spiritual moment in your life.

Day 24: Discuss a spontaneous moment in your life that that turned out to be fantastic.

Day 25: Discuss something you planned that ended up not being what you expected.

Day 26: How do you handle/deal with both success and failure?

Day 27: What is your vocation (why are you here on earth)?

Day 28: What is your biggest dream in life (what one great thing do you want to accomplish)?

Day 29: What WAS your biggest dream in life (you wanted to do as a kid but no longer can)?

Day 30: Someone in your family that means so much to you.

Day 31: Epilogue: Write a letter to yourself.

Read more: http://www.blogiversity.org/blogs/danacreative/archive/2011/01/01/30-day-writing-challenge.aspx#ixzz1sFzht45p